Thursday, October 18, 2007

I'm Still Here!

First of all, I'm sorry for my inactivity here in blogland. Many, many excuses, most of them uninteresting. The main thing is, I guess, that I started this blog as a "tri blog" and, though I'm still swimming and running (and occasionally getting on my bike), "tri-ing" seems far, far in the distance right now. Especially as my current pace - on the road or in the water - resembles one more likely to be found in the Senior Olympics - in the stands - than at any self-respecting triathlon. Honestly, I've seen people toting oxygen and using a walker move faster. So, that's been a little . . . how shall we say. . . detrimental to my self esteem? A lady gave me a look during my long run on Saturday with Hubby and I said to him "See, people are starting to notice I'm pregnant - I'm getting the belly looks." I was thinking I'd graduated to the "bad ass pregnant chic" who's out there running. "No," Hubby graciously corrected me,"I think she was just looking at you because you're obviously into running with your fuel belt and your tri top but you're running so slow, so she was wondering what was up with that." "oh." "right." So, I'm a little worried I don't have much to offer anymore but complaints about how sucky the first trimester is or tips on how not to get run over by the faster crowd who can't even get out "on your left" before they've overtaken you. Its a new kind of adventure this "prego" thing. I've done it before, but not quite the same way - I was lucky to peel my pregnant a$$ off the couch to get another helping of Macho Nachos back then, much less run 4 miles in the dark. And that seems like a really long time ago. Really long time. So, its kind of like I'm starting over - sailing into uncharted waters.

I had an epiphany in the pool yesterday. I was bemoaning my slowness (what else is new?) when it occurred to me how good the water felt. And it hit me - this time is not about goals or improvements or times or miles or yards. Its about moving - as much as I can for as long as I can - just keep moving. And in that regard, I think I'm doing pretty well. I'll add another "goal" to that - just keep writing. And if you want to keep reading, that's just glorious with me. Your friendship and support has meant a lot to me and it will continue to. I promise not to leave you in the dark for too long, anymore. And to read more of those fabulous blogs in my sidebar!

Peace out, friends.

8 comments:

the Dread Pirate Rackham said...

keep moving, girlie - it'll make you pregnancy much more fun.

it's not about speed. Truly, it never was. first and foremost, it's about getting out there!

Bolder said...

of course we'll keep reading!

what kind of fair weather friends do you think we are -- huh?

just keep moving!

(you should sell that to Nike)

Donald said...

If you write it, I'll read it.

21stCenturyMom said...

Indeed - enjoy this time. Move at the speed of pregnancy and relish the moments spent focusing on you.

RunningCrazyAfter3 said...

Haha! I'm not even pregnant and I am sure I am slower than you. It is discouraging and the reason I have sworn off my watch until I actually start training. I don't want to be reminded of how slow I actually am moving :X

Vickie said...

I'm thinking now you really understand how I have felt this whole year. And how as much as you hate being slow, you have come to appreciate being able to move at all. It took me a while to accept that too. Just keep plodding along, if that's what it takes. You will get to the finish line eventually. Glad you're back!

No Wetsuit Girl said...

Hey there are some pretty fast people in the Senior Olympics, man. Don't knock it, lest you be showed up by Grandpa.

I like the story about the lady giving you a funny look about the fuel belt. One of my friends did a duathlon when she was pregnant a few years ago and she yelled, "Oh yeah, well I'm pregnant!" to every woman who passed her.

And I look forward to whatever pearls of wisdom you can bestow upon us from time to time. I've started doing yoga (I call it SUPER BADASS yoga FOR COOL PEOPLE to make myself feel a little more tough) and think of you every time I do it. Just don't forget about us, okay. Throw us a bone from time to time, will you?

jeanne said...

awesome post! yes keep moving. it's nice to have it not be about pace for once, isn't it??!