Wednesday, March 5, 2008

Nostalgia

I've finally had a moment to peruse some of your bad ass blogs and indulge in some vicarious living through your training - it hasn't had any effect on the enormity of my thighs (why, Why, WHY does the baby need weight on my ass? Can anybody tell me that?? Is it a balance thing, what?) it has definitely helped my morale. I had to stop running three months ago because my back just killed me. I'm tough but I'm not a martyr. I didn't post about it because it was too fresh, too painful. It still pretty much sucks, but there's a bigger, better picture I can appreciate now - and its living a squirming and blessed existence in my enormous belly! I swim every once in awhile but, sadly, my schedule, lack of cash flow and my incessant need for sleep tend to interfere with that being a regular thing. Also, its so much frickin work to get a swim suit on. Seriously, I think I burn more calories getting undressed, suited up and redressed than I do in the water. I've been walking whenever possible though this winter's frequent ice has made that a challenge. So, mostly, I veg out. I sleep. I rest. I read. I watch amazing numbers of Baby reality shows: Baby Story, Bringing Home Baby, The Baby Diaries. My husband thinks I'm nuts. I'm just trying to wrap my mind around the little bundle who's set to arrive in three months or so. And the Ironman worthy ordeal that will need to happen in order to get him here. I'm not afraid. Not even nervous, really. Yet. Its just somewhat incomprehensible at this time of my life. All our kids are older - my baby is eight and gangly, though he still tries to climb on my lap every once in awhile. And my belly has become his wooby. Everytime he sits or stands near me, he's trying to lift up my shirt so he can rub the belly. It reminds me of his nursing years - only with less nudity. I mean, I post my belly on the world wide web. I don't think I'd be up to exposing the "nummies" as they were so dubbed eight years ago. Though for the right amount of money . . . did I mention there was a cash flow problem?

ANYWAY - I've so enjoyed visiting you all and seeing what you are up to. I long for the days when I'll be able to revel in a brick that brings me to my knees - or at least to the nearest ice bath. For those long miles on the local trails. For being able to swim more than a couple hundred yards without stopping to catch my breath. Hell, I'd settle for going up the stairs without stopping to suck air!

So, here's to all of you - training and sweating and racing out there! For what its worth, you're keeping my dream alive, even as I lounge on my couch in my nest of a thousand pillows and watch my millionth episode of Baby Story - I know that I'll be back. And I know that my son will know that a brick isn't just something you build houses out of and that tri-ing is even better than trying. And that racing isn't something that only fast people do.

10 comments:

stronger said...

3 more weeks?! Where did the time go? Well, you probably have a good idea of where all the time went! You're in the home stretch.

I never would have watchd A Baby Story...until I was pregnant and then I watched it all the time...and cried every episode. Haven't watched it since- so there is hope. :) Keep taking it easy.

the Dread Pirate Rackham said...

babe, I gotta tell you -- DO NOT WATCH THAT CRAP! it will warp your brain!

You're almost there! I can't believe it's so close! bundles of joy are snuggly and smell good - you're going to have fun with new baby!

triguyjt said...

I can recall my bride swimming every day heading into birthing all three kids and amazingly, the deliveries were pretty darn manageable..(her words, not mine, because a man should never speak for a pregnant spouse)

all the best for the delivery...

21stCenturyMom said...

And here's to you - growing a kid. That is something I will never do again. And who knows why babies demand ass fat? It's a mystery but the good news is infants do not and it goes away.

Donald said...

Nice to hear from you again. Enjoy your down time in the homestretch here - as you know, it vanishes quickly once the kid's on the outside.

Marathoner in Training said...

Great to hear from you, keep relaxed, you will need the energy later. I have to laugh about your cash strapped situation and the pix on the web... As my wife will tell any expecting mother "Epidural". Looking forward to reading about your training soon.

greyhound said...

Nummies, huh? Well, I daresay there is a place on the internet for just about anything.

You'll be back to bare midriff training and ass kicking before you know it. I have every confidence.

Jane said...

Good to see you post again! Can't wait til l'il one comes out!

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Speed Racer said...

You'll be back soon enough. Look out in 2009! In the meantime, thanks for the cheerleading. If you can manage to stay inspired through nine months of a forced off season, then I'm sure you'll be back just as soon as you can.

I do miss your insight though.